Saying Goodbye

 

Nathan and I have been talking a lot about our future lately.  There is so much to consider (even outside of what is in this post).  Let me say before I get too far into this, this post won't be like my normal ones.  This is something I should probably write to Dear Diary!  I haven't done that since before Courtney was born though.  Which means I would have to get in my car, go to the store, pick out a pretty little thing and a pen, drive back home and start writing.  Since I just poured my first cup of coffee, that is not happening.  So it is going here! 

 

The Decision that will change my life: I was happy and content in a job where I really was going to stay until retirement.  35 years of entering, running payments, filing and start again.  Don't get me wrong, I like my job.  It is very monotonous though.  I never thought I would leave it.  I am a creature of habit if nothing else.  I like my life how it is, so don't come in and stir it up.  Which is exactly what Nathan did!  He took out a giant spoon and he STIRRED!!!  Little comments were made from him.  Example in point: As many of you know my twin nephews were born 2 months early and were in the NICU at Jordan Valley.  I made a comment to Nathan on the way home from a visit one night "the nurses are the lifeline to the families."  It was a simple statement really that changed my life.  Nathan's reply "you would be so good at that!!!" 

He's right you know?  I have so much compassion for others.  Even if I have a hard outer shell, it's all squishy inside!  So talking to some of my very good friends, they quickly agreed with Nathan.  More small comments from Nathan, friends, family....decision was made.  I AM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL!

 

After talking to an advisor at SLCC, it quickly became clear that nursing school is no small task. It will be a full time program requiring 110% dedication until graduation. That makes me a full time employee/mom/student. Yikes! I have absolutely no desire to miss out on what is left of my children's childhood. NONE! As much as I want this for myself I won't do it if it has any negative effect on my children growing up. 

 

The next step was much discussion about courses in college, number crunching, how much this will require....I had a very sleepless night on Wednesday. I went into work Thursday morning and gave my 2 weeks notice. This was not an easy decision for me to make. I love Franklin Covey! It is such a fantastic company full of amazing people who truly care about each other. Even after Nathan and I had made our decision, I kept trying to convince myself I was making the wrong one. 

 

 It didn't take long for the news to spread.  I got emails asking me to reconsider, telling me how much I would be missed.  If I had any questions before if I could easily walk away....they were now gone.  This is going to be hard! I even called Nathan, read him a few emails and said "are we sure?" He quickly informed me, "WE ARE SURE!"  I know it is for the future of my family, but really....I'm going to be a sobbing, crying mess for the next 2 weeks (and if we are being honest, probably the following week when I don't go to FC also!).

 

I am going to be putting everything on Nathan.  I won't have an income, that will be solely on him.  How amazing is my husband? He knows we have to tighten our purse strings and live without some things we have gotten so used to having.  Yet he is the first to tell me, this is happening!  He supports me more than I deserve I think!

 

The next few years will be hard, but I am so excited about this next step.  It is going to make our future brighter!  I will have a career, not just a job.  I am for the first time in my life, doing something huge for me! 

 

Thanks for listening, wish me luck!!! (and maybe send tissues.  Lots and lots of tissues!)